a new goal

Two days ago I had a great talk with one of my closest friends of all time, Beth. We were talking about life as 20 somethings, and she was helping me get through a "re-entry" into Boston mood swing. While I have been a happy camper- going to class at Harvard, living in a beautiful apartment, and actually finding time to swim, I neglect to give myself credit for all the little challenges I (like every human) have to confront each day. I'm referring to the little things- like wearing a swimsuit in front of others without concern, asking a question in class even if the professor is intimidating, interviewing at new houses with new babysitting families. Any uncomfortable thoughts or feelings tend to get shoved into the back of my head somewhere and stashed away and then "bam" when the quota of pushed back thoughts is filled, then comes a vent sess. 

Ironically, or not so ironically, one of the problems I come back to is the need for passion. Conversely, there is always a fear that what if I can't find a new passion? For example, how does one train in 1 years time for a 10 mile swim- and then beat that or even replicate the emotional high from that moment? You don't. But, I hope and pray I find a similar event in my future. Of course, my career is something that I want to be passionate about. Especially since I will be going into some sort of service field. If I am not compelled by faith- then I best have a whole lot of burning desire to be doing what I am doing. Tragically, as Beth and I spoke (and I made my soup-see below) Haiti had just been rocked by the earthquake. When I awoke, and saw the news, my first thought was "Oh my God, I need to be there helping." And then, as I brushed my teeth I paused and thought, YES! My passion is there! So game on! I am ready for whatever is next. Also, tonight I saw this video and was extremely inspired. I would love to do this as the first WOMAN! Sounds like a dream- but why not? 


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